My Little Black Book

Submitting to God βœοΈ

So if you are anything like me you just cringed at the word submit. I understand but I had a breakthrough with God this past Sunday, and I need to share my experience. This Sunday, I tried a new church. I was apprehensive about it because I went alone and had some heavy topics on my mind.

I get to this new church and the sermon is about submitting and already I was a little put off. The Pastor says, “Submission is simply putting the wants and desires of someone else ahead of your own.” Well that didn’t seem so bad and I kept listening about the gospel according to James. I compared that sentence to my marriage. I try to put my husband ahead of myself, & I feel he does the same. We might not meet each other’s expectations every time, but we sure as heck try our best. Then the Pastor said to apply that to our relationship with God.

Submission is simply putting the wants and desires of God ahead of your own.

Life is not about oneself but instead it’s what god desires and plans for you and your life when you submit to him. So this takes me down memory lane… the job that I prayed for god to get me out of, the relationship I prayed to work, or the hurt I prayed to go away? I prayed for a new job for months, I applied to employers everyday, and almost quit on a weekly basis. God knew when the opening was right for my new job, he kept pushing me to apply to other businesses and gave me strength to not quit my job every time I felt the urge to. That new job came and was the best change of my life. God knew. He knew what was right for me even though I didn’t. Eons and eons ago, I prayed for a past relationship to succeed- I felt that it was my future. God knew differently. He knew what was best for me and to close the door on that chapter in my life. At the time, I didn’t understand. After I found my husband, every closed door before him made sense. Every wrong turn and ending made sense. Pain that I have received in my life and begged for it to go away has gone away in time. Did I pray to not feel again? Probably. Did god do that? NO. Pain makes you learn compassion and empathy. Was that his plan? I’m not sure but it has made me stronger and empathetic to similar pains I see in others. When we aren’t submitting to God, we pray for what our desires and what we think will make us happy so WE get our way. But how can we do that when we don’t know what is best for us or others? We should lift up our prayers to God and ask him to give us what we need. If you aren’t receiving, maybe you need to ask yourself who are you asking for? Who does this benefit?

If I heard this message 5 years ago, I wouldn’t be able to accept submitting. But I am in a place in my life where I don’t think I have all the resources or answers to get me to the next level. I don’t know what will be best for me, my marriage, family issues, friends, etc. without God. When the Pastor spoke, I know God meant for me to be there at that very moment. I know that he knew I was ready to hear his message. My journey has started a new chapter with my faith and I feel more alive than I have in a longtime.



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Can you even Dexcom? πŸ€”

My diabetic journey began a little over 3 years ago, & has drastically changed my life. I have managed it on my own for long enough, and am excited and nervous about getting my Dexcom G6. This device will monitor my blood sugar levels every 5 minutes. 🀯 The catch is that I have a device attached to me 24 hours a day to be able to do this.

It has been a rollercoaster of highs & lows literally- check my A1C (🀣 diabetic humor.) I hear moms never rest and I see it with every mom that I know. I don’t know how they do it and hope I can have it all together like my mom did. We do have something in common though- my diabetes never lets me rest. I am on 24/7 and it doesn’t matter if I’m tired, sick, busy, or working. Every single day of my life for the rest of my life will be devoted to managing it.

The management day in and day out can break you. Even to the strongest people. The reality is if I don’t take care of my body, it falls apart. For instance, maybe I don’t want to check my blood sugar before I eat and due to that I run high or really low. That one decision effected my body in a negative way. The problem is with decisions like this over and over again I will have long term effects on my health. We may not see it now but we will in the future.

Having the Dexcom will eliminate a lot of extra work that I have done in the past. Today is my third day having the Dexcom and I can’t believe that I’ve waited this long to have it. Even though, the amount of data can be overwhelming it’s better than not enough data.

The picture above shows all my new gadgets. The small grey/purple device connects to my body and that big scary mouse looking thing is how I get it to attach to my body. I was very nervous to get this device snapped onto my body and I appreciate my husband for doing it since I have it on my arm, I also appreciate the people who offered to help me. This is my new normal, and each stage that I go though with my Diabetes journey, I learn more about management and learn more about myself.

Stay strong,


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Body Shaming…Me??? ✊🏼

Since we are in an era of women empowerment just as we were in the 90’s, as the Spice Girls would say, “Girl power!” My topic of discussion is body shaming.

I am a thin woman, was a thin girl, and a thin child. I have been thin my entire life. I can eat whatever I want and not gain a pound. My entire life, I have had to defend my weight. If you are skinny apparently it’s appropriate to comment on my thinness and imply that I must have an eating disorder or barely eat. Just a FYI, I normally eat just as much as my husband every meal we have together. But I shouldn’t have to explain myself anyways. This is body shaming. It’s not okay to make anyone feel insecure about the shape of their body. Skinny, curvy, fat, stocky, etc.

For some reason it’s socially acceptable to comment on women who are skinny versus fat. I don’t go up to an overweight person and tell them to put those fries down just as you shouldn’t go up to me and tell me to finish those fries.

Are women being empowered or are we only empowering certain types of women?

From my life experience, individuals who have done this to me are unhappy with themselves. So I don’t get as offended as much as I used to because the person is showcasing who they are as a person with their words. How people talk or what they talk about reflects them as a person. The words are a reflection of them and not the words that are being thrown in your direction.

Here’s a PSA for you all: Think before you speak. You never know how hurtful words can be and how long they will stick around in someone’s mind or cling on to an already insecure thought someone may have about themselves.


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Fashion Friday πŸ–€

Brunch attire:

Champagne Gang sweatshirt

High-Waisted Jean skirt

Wannabe Gucci belt

Black sparkly heeled booties

There’s no secret about my love for brunch and my bigger love to dress up for a theme.

Fashion is fun. Run with it.

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Spring Challenges

A new season is upon us, which brings us to being outside more. A group of friends and I way back when used to have something called: Summer Challenges. Each week we would have a list of things to do that was summer related to make us stop our busy lives and enjoy what summer had to offer us. We would take pictures of all the challenges we did and share at the end of the week. I loved it. These things would take a short amount of time to do but refreshed me for the rest of the week.

So here are my Spring challenges to you for the next 30 days:

– Farmers market 🌸

-Happy hour in your backyard 🍹

-Baseball game ⚾️

-Have a picnic at a park πŸ§€πŸ·

– Feed ducks at a pond πŸ¦†

-Go for a jog or hike πŸƒπŸ»β€β™€οΈ

-Go fruit picking πŸ“πŸ’

-Plant something 🌼

-Install a bird feeder 🦜

-Go on a nature photo shoot πŸ“·

-Try out a local dog park πŸ•

-Check out a local farm with animals or a petting zoo πŸ„

– Go to a new coffee shop and try out a new cup β˜•οΈ

-Do brunch πŸ₯‚πŸ₯ž

-Have a dog date πŸ•πŸΆπŸΎ

Best of luck- AπŸ–€

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