So if you are anything like me you just cringed at the word submit. I understand but I had a breakthrough with God this past Sunday, and I need to share my experience. This Sunday, I tried a new church. I was apprehensive about it because I went alone and had some heavy topics on my mind.
I get to this new church and the sermon is about submitting and already I was a little put off. The Pastor says, “Submission is simply putting the wants and desires of someone else ahead of your own.” Well that didn’t seem so bad and I kept listening about the gospel according to James. I compared that sentence to my marriage. I try to put my husband ahead of myself, & I feel he does the same. We might not meet each other’s expectations every time, but we sure as heck try our best. Then the Pastor said to apply that to our relationship with God.
Submission is simply putting the wants and desires of God ahead of your own.
Life is not about oneself but instead it’s what god desires and plans for you and your life when you submit to him. So this takes me down memory lane… the job that I prayed for god to get me out of, the relationship I prayed to work, or the hurt I prayed to go away? I prayed for a new job for months, I applied to employers everyday, and almost quit on a weekly basis. God knew when the opening was right for my new job, he kept pushing me to apply to other businesses and gave me strength to not quit my job every time I felt the urge to. That new job came and was the best change of my life. God knew. He knew what was right for me even though I didn’t. Eons and eons ago, I prayed for a past relationship to succeed- I felt that it was my future. God knew differently. He knew what was best for me and to close the door on that chapter in my life. At the time, I didn’t understand. After I found my husband, every closed door before him made sense. Every wrong turn and ending made sense. Pain that I have received in my life and begged for it to go away has gone away in time. Did I pray to not feel again? Probably. Did god do that? NO. Pain makes you learn compassion and empathy. Was that his plan? I’m not sure but it has made me stronger and empathetic to similar pains I see in others. When we aren’t submitting to God, we pray for what our desires and what we think will make us happy so WE get our way. But how can we do that when we don’t know what is best for us or others? We should lift up our prayers to God and ask him to give us what we need. If you aren’t receiving, maybe you need to ask yourself who are you asking for? Who does this benefit?
If I heard this message 5 years ago, I wouldn’t be able to accept submitting. But I am in a place in my life where I don’t think I have all the resources or answers to get me to the next level. I don’t know what will be best for me, my marriage, family issues, friends, etc. without God. When the Pastor spoke, I know God meant for me to be there at that very moment. I know that he knew I was ready to hear his message. My journey has started a new chapter with my faith and I feel more alive than I have in a longtime.